The song itself sounds like a battle with one's self as they admit that they are the cause of the breakup and hard times within their relationship.
With words such as “I know it’s all my fault” and “Behind this fake smile, I’m suffocating still”. The person is aware of their mistakes and sabotaging nature and it is eating away at them. This is also shows in the next lines “If I let you in, then I’ll let you down again”. I personally love this take on a love long as it shows that one can self sabotage and hate that instead of being another song about being the victim and another person hurts you.
“Every word unsaid is a prison cell”. In my view this shows the person and their lover are very open about their issues and when they keeps things hidden, it hurts because they only want the best for each other as well as they can’t handle distance and in a way needs contact because without it, it feels like a prison. The line also sounds like guilt. Sometimes when you know something and someone you love doesn't you keep it in to protect them but in doing this, it kills you. Is ignorance bliss for my partner or should I tell them the truth knowing it will fuck us up? Although you should always tell them the truth.
“Oh heartbreak, how did I get here again?” This is a very interesting line to me. On one hand it clearly shows the person is so used to going through the same bullshit and ending up in heartbreak left confused because they're trying to be better. A typical recipe for self sabotage. On another hand I also read it as the person has gone through this so often that they are starting to personify heartbreak and ask it for help; "How did I get here again? Help me to never come again."
“The horror, I fall for anything”. This is another interesting line to me. I feel like the person calls for affection and a relationship, the “anything” the writer can fall for could be the excitement that a new person has come into their life. Mistaken for a new chance, a new beginning that ends up being a façade or they could fall for the promises they made for themselves; that they will change and wont repeat the same mistakes but always end up doing it.
“You see a man but I see a monster". This shows the innocence that their partner has, despite the hardships, mistakes or even warnings the writer has given; their partner still sees them as a man whilst the writer sees himself as a monster. Maybe it isn't innocence but strength and love that makes their partner see through the trouble and still value him as a man, only showing more why the writer is so broken from this situation.
“You know you might find, The consequences grow, You tell me you’re fine, But I can’t see past the cracks that scar, the recklessness and hurt”. This verse shows that the writer is aware their partner is damaged and upset but keeps a strong face and says they are fine to not ruin anything but in doing this, the consequences grow because it will only lead to a harder breakup with more pain or more time for the writer to keep making mistakes. Regardless, they are aware of all the bas possible outcomes as they cant see past the affects of their actions proving the immense guilt that is felt.
Josh replied: "I love this unpacking of the song - honestly don't feel like there's much more to add! As individuals within the band, we are all pretty introspective, and that introspection within a relationship can very often lead to an acute awareness of the fact that our actiojn have big ramifications on the people we love. Whether it's a thing like flirting with someone that isn't our partner or simple an act of poor listening, we can easily avoid them. We feel like monsters, even if it's not true at all, and possibly even long after the person we've hurt has forgiven us. Like you picked up on, "every word unsaid is a prison cell" - being open and honest with the people we love is the truest way to build something solid rather than ending up in a cycle of self-loathing."